Sunday, September 17, 2006
Ha, just finished another dvd, "Meet The Fockers", Little Jack was cute with his "S-hooooole" and Bernard's "Your grandpa is full of "POOP"", laughed my ass out.. HA! Actually i watched that in the theatre before.. and alot of dvds i owned now, i watched them before.. I just wanna keep them as memories.. Meet the fockers, Monster-in-law *with that VIOLA!*, Ladder 49, Alot like love, Flight of the Phoenix, Torque, many more. I want all of these dvds locked up with me in my coffin in future, those were great memories~!
;in.the.mix.
12:04 AM
Friday, September 15, 2006
I wake up this morning, only to realise I've cried throughout my sleep.
I aint happy.. But who's gonna care for me..
Forget it, I'm better off alone anyway.
;in.the.mix.
12:11 PM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
I really am breaking down, and there's no one for me to talk to.
I cried alone in orchard after being disqualified, alone for 15 whole minutes until someone came and talked to me.
She did talk the sense out of me, she grabbed me from the edge of falling, but when she left as i see her back vanishing from my sight.. i felt i was left alone again.
You people might see my tears as the tears of disappointment.
Yes I am.
But the reason of the tears is, after the competition, I realised everything and everyone that I love, I just couldnt get them. They may once belong to me, but someone is always taking them away from me. I'm that useless afterall. I'm in my lowest faith. I couldnt smile. I couldnt even talk to anyone. All I did was just blaming myself. I'm tired.. sick of this life. Since August last year, everything that's suppose to let me smile, is gone, up till today when the last piece shattered from my dreams.
I am faithfully sorry to you guys and sincerely thankful to the supports and encouragement.
For the spectators, the loud applaudes, and the cheers, thanks guy.
But it is not helping me in gaining my faith.
Someone holds the key in regaining my faith. But I couldnt pin any hope in that key.. I couldnt, not i dont want to..
You guys might said, try again next year, but do anyone of you know this year is the hardest year I've been through? The year where most irony happens to me.. How am I going to live past the next year? I'm tired.. I'm outta it, i've lose confidence. They say I still have chance, but to me.. there's no chance left.. Everything I love is gone without giving me a chance..
I really hope there's such things as chance, give me one last chance in everything, I need love to tell me there's something worth living for.
Right now, I'm still feeling useless..
Breaking down..
;in.the.mix.
1:54 AM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
In loving Memories of Steve "Crocodile Hunter" Irwin
22nd Feburary 1962 to 4th September 2006
At the age of 44, Steve leaves wife Terri, 32, daughter Bindi, 8, and son Bob, 2.
A sad day for Animal Planet's fans, I've been watching Steve Irwin on the TV for years. I love his show. His guts for taking dangerous animals to the extreme limit and his love for the animals are well worth everyone's respect. The series he hosted, "Crocodile Hunter", attracted viewers all over the world. He died yesterday in a freak accident - stung by a sting-ray while snorkling above it. He was a great man, a great hudband and a great father. He loves the wildlife as much as anyone could be, and besides wildlife, he loves his family more than anyone else. His daughter inherited his passion for wildlife. Forever he will be remembered all over the world. Rest in peace, Steve. Your warming heart for the animals will forever exists within mankind & wildlife. Love always, forever in our heart.
;in.the.mix.
7:01 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
I broke my elbow today. And this post is typed with 1 hand, 4 fingers. What is bothering me while training? I guessed it's the same old reason. HAas..
;in.the.mix.
10:29 PM
