Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Today, nothing special.. i walked the path she and i used to walk back to her house from my house, to and fro.. it's been a long time i walked tat path, with her.. now i'm walking with hong wei.. sighs.. he understand my feelings.. so just keep his mouth shut and pei me walk.. nearly weep when i thought of her.. sighs.. den reach her house dere, walk to 7-11 and buy mash potato.. and some cup noodles, and went to the place we used to ate instant noodles together.. memories.. those were my happiest day..
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8:09 AM
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
will somebody plan my life for me.. sighs.. i juz couldnt go on like this everyday.. wad the heck is the L - O - V - E, what the fark is tat.. some says it's bless to be in love, but i'm gettin sorrows from it..
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3:39 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
I just couldnt get it.. sighs.. ytd is not the happiest day of the year, it's one of the saddest one.. i'm not happy, no i'm not! Why am i to cry on my birthday? I dont know.. everyone tell me i'm stressing myself.. giving stress to myself which can be avoided.. she is loved by another guy, stop the love for her.. but there's something telling me not to.. dunno lahs! i'm tired of life.. way of life.. ha, end it please..
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4:06 PM
Happy Birthday to me!! lols.. juz back home.. laz nite ate a birthday dinner wif my buddies at marina south, royston was dere *thankiew so much* lols.. Very touched when all those long-lost frens suddenly call me and wish me happy birthday.. teck yew especially, give me endless blessing.. lols. After the dinner, went to macpherson KG pub to had some drink.. i'm cheered wif a couples of drink and after the pub closed, we walk back to our troupe to sleep lor. On the way back, my coach keep askin me "why so sad, no need to guess, amelia isnt it?" i've got no reason to deny.. and confessed some things to him. In the past, i and amelia quarrelled over the freestyle.. but after tat i quit freestyle for her.. told him i dun wanna forget her and wanna love her for as long as i could.. well, maybe i had a couple of drink or i wun tell him all this. Lols he replied he felt guilty.. wth right.. lols.. she's not meant to be mine.. exactly a year ago, she treated me sakae sushi at westmall.. it was my happiest bdae ever spent.. i wun forget tat.. but this year.. well.. i'm kinda sad tat the one with me is not her.. and btw, when we were still together, 2dae is the day i looked forward most to.. she told me happily that my bdae falls on the first day of her sch holidaes, but now? i think they celebrating their 3 months together bahs. All the best to them=) Anyway for my birthday wish, i wan her to be happy, peaceful and successful in everything. =) Wish me happy birthday one more time..
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12:30 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Today, 23rd of Nov.. lols, i start my remix business again, o lvl juz finish ytd mahs.. kekes. Aiming to finish this mix by 26th, this saturday, my birthday.. it's some kind of birthday present for myself, i could say. Hmm.. i'm mixing Kick Back Mr Playboy'05, actually by dj'nquu but i chose it for my remix.. lols! wish me luck, gotta work thru the night starting now. And, ya last night i got those dreams again, she patched with me and then i wake up and shout out loud "WHAT THE F***".. darn.. while i view back my back-up files, i saw so many of our past photos.. sighs, and her photos, and audric's.. frankly speaking i'd love to meet audric, kinda miss him.. lols in the past i was naggin amelia for audric's video.. now? Heck lahs dream on!
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12:43 PM
Monday, November 21, 2005
omg omg i've got slipped disc!! and i've to be on medicine and cautious diet for 2 WHOLE MONTHS! ARGHHH.. wad has gotten into me?! i just finish my medicine for my gastric not long ago and now i've to be on med again.. *phew* released my anger.. but anyway, be glad i wasnt paralysed.. lols.. when the doc said "if it's more serious, u'll be paralysed" my eyes when O.O, lols! why am i gettin sick all the time.. one look at my face the doc ask me "didnt sleep early every night?" and then "didnt drink enuff water?" and then "irregular diet?".. wth.. if i sleep early, how to blog? *actually it's tat i'm afraid i will cry when i'm on bed* if i drink more water, den the power-supply bill will be expensive! *actually, i'm lazy to get water* if i eat regularly, my dining table will be full.. *actually i've no appetite* well, confession.. lols. Feel free to visit me when i'm hospitalised, i dunno when, but soon i'll be. Next stop, singapore general hospital. nuh service too slow.. well, i'm going to visit and experience them one by one.
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3:27 AM
Saturday, November 19, 2005
OMG! It's 19th AGAIN! You all might think "what the hell.." right.. hmm.. let's count'em.. if nothing happens to us, we are together for 1 year 10mths.. well, it's over 4 months ago, cry bahs cry bahs.. boohoo.. wth, forgive me as i haven got enuff sleep.. *diaos*
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11:06 AM
Monday, November 14, 2005
Went to bugis again today.. not much fun actually.. saw some clothings and pants which i like, but in the end i didnt buy it.. always like that, planning to buy yet didnt buy, didnt plan to buy but still didnt buy.. i'd have to continue wearing my same old sets of polo-tees and pmk tees amelia gave me. Kinda sians lahs, walk here and dere oso same de.. den sit down and had a chat a kopitiam, and my coach told me he threw my newspaper away!!! ARGHH.. THAT NEWSPAPER.. DATED 19TH JANUARY'05, HE THREW IT AWAY.. GRRRR.. sighs.. dont ask me why i wanted to keep that.. lookin at the date alone let me recalled the fun we had that day.. sighs, he said he threw it away to help me to forget her.. please guys, it's not that i cant forget her, it's that i didnt wanna forget her.. i've put all my hearts inside this one-sided love.. sighs
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3:54 PM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
lols.. 2dae after ma physic examination, went home and took a rest. lols had a nice and lame chat wif yanwen.. kekes i had to end up calling someone younger "jie".. haha. Hmm.. went to bugis to find the bunch of monkies and pigs.. saw nothing new, wanted that piece of darn grunch pants so much, but if i buy it, i've to starve maself for weeks.. nono.. haha! bought a pink watch, 2 pink 1 purple socks.. and ma frens cant stand all the colour i chose.. lols.. no choice, i juz love it, pure influence, power of love.. haha!
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2:13 PM
"Though I'm not the one by your side, and I've failed to win your heart, but I'm contented that you are once mine.. I'll remember you forever.."-Wanwan
"I'll always remember the sweetest moment of us in my heart, as the sweetest memory of my life.."-Xiu Ning
Hmm.. i'm upholding this 2 quotes.. lols.. plus one more:
"As I promised to love you for as long as I can, I'd fulfil my promise.. And I'm still loving you deeply now.." -Wan Xiang =X
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3:32 AM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
since 19th jan'04.. whenever i've got my moods, happy-sad-angry-nervous-excitement or wadeva feelings, i oways share it wif amelia.. today is sunday, tml is my maths o lvl, oso the starting of my examinations.. i've kept my feelings and moods to myself since she left me.. but today i felt so tensed that.. something inside me pushed me to express my moods to her juz like i did b4.. though i didnt get sweet things like muackies or huggies i used to get, i got her support, i'm so glad.. thanks amelia so much.. she herself is the reason for me saying "i love you" truthfully.. she really touch my heart alot.. many times.. Well, today went to the temple, i prayed for her happiness, hope it will come true. wish me luck, wish me peace & happiness.. love, wanxiang
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9:34 PM
